So I know NO ONE will remember this but a long while ago I had said that if I watched the first episode in which Lisa and Ben first appeared, it might sway my opinion about the pairing Lisa/Dean. I want to make it apparent that I have nothing against Ben, I think he’s adorable and if it weren’t for Lisa saying that she did a blood test, I would pin him as Dean’s kid.

So I watched it, and every time Ben appeared on screen and talked I just wanted to slap Lisa upside the head. The things that he was saying are things that no child with a single mother of Lisa’s type would say. I didn’t like Ben’s character at eight, not really. It just felt like it was shoved down my throat till I was choking on it that Ben being Dean’s son was a big possibility. I was disgusted with Sera for Making Ben be eight year old Dean. Wash Ben’s mouth out? Fuck that, if Ben was talking the way he was, then Lisa’s mouth needs to be washed out. I was just really disgusted by that aspect of Ben at that age.

I don’t have much of an opinion of Lisa as a character. I don’t think she’s bad, that she’s good, I just don’t have much of an opinion on her.

I have all the opinions in the world about her being with Dean though. I still don’t see what the Dean/Lisa shippers see. I really don’t and It upsets me because I do want Dean to be loved, wincest side of me be damned. I just don’t see it at all. All I see on Dean’s part from that episode was that he was hoping for another ‘hit it and quit it’ from one of the best sex escapades of his life. I saw more compatibility between Cassie and Dean than Lisa and Dean. I wouldn’t have been so irritated if Dean went to Cassie than if he went to Lisa. I just… I don’t understand it still and I feel disappointed in myself that I don’t see what others see to the point where while I don’t care for the pairing, I can at least see why others like it. I don’t and I don’t like that.